Sadness

I watched the small boy grow to a man.

I watched as he played in the sand.

He cried, he cared, his gentle ways so clear.

I don't know when I realized but I did.

I loved the way he took care of me.

I loved the way he made me laugh.

I loved how he never complained when things went wrong.

I loved how he was always there, his gentle ways so clear.

He was a loner all through school

He stayed to himself always playing it cool

Still each time I called he was right there

Never did he falter never did he fail

He had deep troubles

Haunting and rare

His soul he did search

He fought with demons until he loss

He fought with heaven until he loss

Going no where he turned to sin

He let the troubles of the world

Get under his skin.

The pain he suffered I was aware

But helpless to help him

I avoided the truth by ignoring the facts

He needed me so, where was I at?

He was always there when ever I called

He did what I ask with no questions at all

I love this boy now a man

What can I do to make it all right?

How do I take him out of the dark and into the light?

Now it is I that cry for his pain

He is all lost and out in the rain.

Have you ever seen Satan?

I mean face to face.

Trust me you don't want to

It's not a nice sight.

He can turn you into the most hideous Sight

And leave you alone in the dead of the night.

I watched as he did this

To the boy that I love now a man

He took him to the bottom of Hell

And forced him to surrender his soul

Now there is no turning back

So for the attention I lack

I must suffer for my ignorance

But I am not alone

I hold him, he cries, I love him, he loves me back

But, it's different; it's never the same.

He is lost in a world of torture and pain.

Seldom I see him seldom he calls

Only when he wants something, which is never at all.

I tell him I love him, he repeats the words back

Then he hangs up and I wipe the tear from my eyes

And wonder if I will see him again.

When will he come? Will he stop in?

Will he be thinner, will he be well

Will he live to reach old age?

Damn it that's not true, will he live to reach middle age.

His beauty has faded, his smile turn to a frown

He can never be happy, he can never be found

He is lost in a world, of hatred and sin

Knock knock…I ask him will you let me in?